Anxiety doesn't have a hold over me like it used to but it is still something I have to manage. Every now and then I experience weeks when anxiety hovers around, when the low-level buzz of it is ever-present. This can be because I have been too busy or not sleeping well, or because there is unexpected stress in my life. It can also be because I haven't been looking after myself very well and self-care has been neglected. It can be for no obvious reason at all.On these weeks I employ all the tactics I know to try and...

We met at 12:30 in my favourite cafe. The over-enthusiastic waiter delivered two plates of mushrooms on toast to our table, walking away with the tray spinning on his finger like a basket ball. I poured the tea.She told me about her recent trip to India to see her Uncle and her family weekend in Scotland. I filled her in on our few days in Anglesey. We talked about our work, what we were excited about and how we managed the boring but necessary tasks.I started to talk about what I wanted to do next, ideas tumbling out one after...

Do you feel restless?Are you waiting for the next thing; the next job, or weekend, or night of unbroken sleep?Is your heart drumming it's fingers on the desk?Are you impatient?And how's your soul?Are you at peace?Do you know contentment? Can you experience quiet and rest?This weekend I spent time with my sister and my Mum. These two wonderful women are both very active people.They are energised by being do-ers.They do stuff. They get stuff done.And in the action of fulfilling these tasks they find satisfaction. For them it seems this active, busy life is life-bringing.In years gone by after some time...

Today I am delighted to welcome Tim Grayburn to the blog.Tim Grayburn is a former advertising executive turned performance artist, actor and writer. He co-wrote and performed in his debut theatre show “Fake it til You Make it’ which focused on his own experience of depression. It went on to win ‘Best Theatre’ award at Perth & Adelaide 2015 Fringe festivals. The tour continued with further success in a sold out 4 week run during the Edinburgh 2015 Fringe winning the Herald Angel ‘Best Theatre’ award. He is the author of – ‘Boys Don’t Cry’ an autobiographical tale and exploration...

Hi,I think it might be time to take stock. To think about the things that are tricky. The things you want to ignore and brush under the carpet.I say this because, as you well know, acknowledgement is the first step. You have to see it before you can do anything about it.And the truth is:You are not okay right now, and that is okay.Honestly, it is.You feel low. And that's okay. You don't have to be great all the time.You are allowed to have a bad week, or month. It doesnt necessarily mean another crash is on the way. (In fact this...

To start, some truth:January can be hard.And if you are finding it hard, that does not make you weak.Because it can be hard.I feel this is worth repeating, let me make sure you know before you read any further:it is okay to be finding it hard. You are okay.So, Christmas is over, the decorations have been taken down and any post-holidays fog of wine and chocolate has lifted and been replaced by the stark reality that we are in a new year. 2018 is here. Everywhere there are adverts inviting me to become a 'new me' in this new year....

I love Christmas. I love a reason to celebrate, to eat good food and make a fuss. I love the full sensory experience, the smells and the decorations, lighting the candles and listening to the music.I am no scrooge.However, over the years Christmas has become a  bit much.I have made it a bit much.I am an all or nothing kind of person. I am not very good at self-control and moderation, and Christmas has always been a time to revel in this side of my personality.I want to do ALL of it.I want to have special meals with all my different groups of...

In the Summer my 11 year old daughter went to a drama club. This club was being run by one of the original cast members of Matilda (the musical) and another actor who I knew from my time working as a theatre director.As I dropped child number 2 off for her day of fun, I got chatting with my actor friend. Our conversation ambled along predictable lines while I propelled my son back to the car. Soon enough he asked me if I was still working in the theatre. I told him no, that just over a year ago I...

A few weeks ago I wrote a letter to my strong, exhausted friend. (You can read it here.)At so many points in my life I have been the person who needed to read that letter, and often still am.But I am re-learning how to live and a large part of this has involved re-discovering how to rest.I know rest is important, and yet I don't make it a priority. It gets squeezed out. I find myself exhausted, falling into bed either to sleep fitfully or to lie awake aware of all I still need to do but haven't managed to...

Do you feel you are constantly on the hook?It's a strange phrase - think - the opposite of 'off the hook'.Being caught on the hook makes you feel culpable, or guilty, as though you can never relax or let go.In recent years letting myself off the hook has been an idea I have become very attached to. I like the idea that I am freeing myself from...